As a contemplation, shifting from grey cloud to blue sky is very helpful, as is realizing the sky is not a blue cloud. But as I stayed with this, it expanded as I realized beyond the metaphor, blue sky is totally an illusion. In my mind, watching blue sky fade into twilight, watching the first star appear in it, my sense of being deepened. As the blue faded completely and the black of night was revealed, I fell deeper into myself. Feeling the endless black of night illumined by billions of ages old stars, opened infinity and eternity. So many layers to the play….only one being. Happiness of this nature includes but is ultimately far beyond mere blue sky.
Thank you Rupert for writing this so easy to understand and at the same time brilliantly clear.
For years I search my way into this happiness. It felt like "being ". Being felt like happiness. But now it feels more like a permanent energy, thats constantly here. It feels like located in the torso, like I have this vest of quiet happiness and peace that is untouched by whatever is experienced. The character can feel all sorts of emotions and have all sorts of thoughts but this peaceful torso is always and eternally happy. It can feel rather strange to have a feeling that is not happy, but feel that you are happy. All I can do is laugh at the play...
Adyashanti talked about awakening of the mind, then awakening of the heart, and then awakening of the "gut". I think it was in his book "the end of your world " - Is this torso-feeling what he could have meant by the gut? Having it everyday, and feeling it permanently "in your body", never leaving?
As a contemplation, shifting from grey cloud to blue sky is very helpful, as is realizing the sky is not a blue cloud. But as I stayed with this, it expanded as I realized beyond the metaphor, blue sky is totally an illusion. In my mind, watching blue sky fade into twilight, watching the first star appear in it, my sense of being deepened. As the blue faded completely and the black of night was revealed, I fell deeper into myself. Feeling the endless black of night illumined by billions of ages old stars, opened infinity and eternity. So many layers to the play….only one being. Happiness of this nature includes but is ultimately far beyond mere blue sky.
Thank you Rupert for writing this so easy to understand and at the same time brilliantly clear.
For years I search my way into this happiness. It felt like "being ". Being felt like happiness. But now it feels more like a permanent energy, thats constantly here. It feels like located in the torso, like I have this vest of quiet happiness and peace that is untouched by whatever is experienced. The character can feel all sorts of emotions and have all sorts of thoughts but this peaceful torso is always and eternally happy. It can feel rather strange to have a feeling that is not happy, but feel that you are happy. All I can do is laugh at the play...
Adyashanti talked about awakening of the mind, then awakening of the heart, and then awakening of the "gut". I think it was in his book "the end of your world " - Is this torso-feeling what he could have meant by the gut? Having it everyday, and feeling it permanently "in your body", never leaving?